Just a Long Story

WAI? A

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Wed, 14 Jan 2009 22:07:51 GMT

I feel betrayed. Gmail has not been notifying me of comments made on my comments. somehow.
ARE YOU AND LJ HAVING A FIGHT OR SOMETHING?
SO, I haven't noticed a handful of comments being made on my posts in communities. *cries*

It is almost time for extra lifedrawing. Hmm.

YAY!

Where does the time go?

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Fri, 09 Jan 2009 09:26:37 GMT

School starts in a couple days, and I'm actually excited. Hee.

I regret that I haven't been updating this journal for a while because there are a heck of a lot of things I'd love to share. Just using the account as a way to stalk communities. Many of which I am not even a member of. Maybe once I get my act together....

You know looking back at these older entries...wow, I was SO EMO.
It kinda scares me.. XD

Fade to black...!

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Thu, 11 Sep 2008 05:05:31 GMT

SERIOUSLY. You hear about kids at Uni. or College passing out due to exhaustion or what have you all the time, but I'd never thought it would happen to me!!! O____O

So like, after school, open life drawing...there's like 35 or more people crammed in there and 15 minutes into the session I start to get cold sweats; get dizzy and lightheaded and pass out on the floor. IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. Someone carried me out of the room and people are all like "nurse, ambulance, doctor, wheelchair" (I'm semi-consious at this point...and I remember muttering stuff to answer people's questions, although I can't remember the things I was saying). It turns out my blood pressure was too low and my blood sugar wasn't that great either; and the standing during life drawing wasn't helping it.

I stayed in the hospital for maybe 5 hours. The doctors couldn't find any visible veins in my arms, so they had to keep TRYING *holey* to get the IV in. I got discharged just a little while ago.

The doctors told me it would be wise to leave the program, looking at the pace I'm going at. But I'm gonna keep at it. IT'S ONLY EVER IN LIFE DRAWING THOUGH THAT I FEEL LIGHTHEADED AND THERE ARE NO FUMES OR ANYTHING. I think it was just the idea that I was in a room full of pro people and that a lot of them were standing behind and around me, in full view of my honest to goodness shit. (omg, S-- ---, D---- ---, D---- ----, C---- ---...just to censor a few) You can feel so INFERIOR in there. Ugh, how pathetic am I?

It was truly, very scary and unreal. But, anyway...feeling better. Just tired.

I could go on (and believe me, there are fun/not so fun stories to tell about that open class) but I need to head back to Oakville tomorrow (in Toronto).

NYARRRR NOW EVERYONE IS GONNA KNOW ME AS "GIRLWHOPASSEDOUTINLIFEDRAWING" FOR THE NEXT FOUR YEARRRRRRS! JEEZ WHAT A WAY TO START COLLEGE~ *hides*

Sheridan

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Thu, 04 Sep 2008 05:05:50 GMT

LOL it's been like...almost a year since I posted?

But now I'm finally in college! SHERIDAN COLLEGE!
I dunno HOW it happened, but it did and now I'm in Animation!!! *dances*

Just finished moving into my new apartment with my roommate.
Gah, I'm so glad the place is RIGHT IN FRONT of the school.
I'm busy busy busy with schoolwork already. @_@
BUT I'M LOVIN' IT. (dah dah dah da dah~)

I think I'm going to slowly start updating this blog, dA, tegaki, etc.
I mean, besides going on for e-mails, homework and manga...I've been off the internetz for so long. *o*

Ah, and I finally bought a Doctor Who Season. *walletdies*
It's Season 2!!! carmine_ink, Girl in the Fireplace, was AMAZING.

No Gun. No Talent.

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Mon, 12 Nov 2007 04:43:24 GMT

...was sort of how I was feeling the past two weeks.
(So, in other words, Neil Gaiman yet again seems to have sum up life in a few words)

Preeety rough. I don't think I've ever been a terrible student but this year, which is supposed to be the most important year too, has not been going so well.

I'm really, really beginning to loathe french for all the wrong reasons and am trying my best to stop. The worst part of it is...I can't seem to find a good side to it. I dislike the atmosphere, the period, the reading materials, the language, the people...God, I sound like a bitch.

Latin has been considerably harder. Although I still like the subject. I don't think I really have anything to complain about here...since its my own fault for the lack of preparation; jumping into such a difficult class. I really underestimated it.

Art, I really love. But due to the aforementioned two subjects I'd basically been living at the library. (My library books are overdue) My series isn't as great as it should be. I felt like it had potential but I didn't quite grasp it. That's bugging me. I should have been able to focus more on art than ANYTHING this year. Visiting Sheridan really set my mind on getting into the school. It's so beautiful.

I'm beginning to think I'm mildly mentally unstable...and I'm being very serious. My parents are also concerned and have spoken to me several times about getting myself checked again. It's just these little outbursts and uncontrolable actions and moodswings. I don't know if they're the results of stress or pressure or what have you. Actually I was taken to the doctor to see if I had Tourette's Syndrome some years ago (9...10 years old?), because of constant tics (gritting teeth, jerking the head and arms, twitching eyelids) but they disappeared and never came back until recently. So bottom line, it's not the first time.

I've been reading Gaiman books like a madwoman. Everywhere; subways, sofas, work, bed, bathroom...you get the picture. In the past week I've devoured:

Anansi Boys
Stardust (illustrated)
The Last Temptation
Smoke and Mirrors
Endless Nights

...which isn't a great management of time on my part but honestly, reading the books cheers me up more than Starbuck's vanilla bean frappucinos; and that's saying a lot. I dunno...I think I said they were like anti-depressants. They really are.

Work's been on my case too. I love my job and I don't want to quit it. But school is kind of creeping up on me now, and I'm considering asking my boss for a few days off...
I just love the people there so much, they're so helpful...I think I've learned there, what four years of high school art couldn't teach me.

I just hope things will turn around soon with a little hard work and concentration. I'll put Neil's books away for a while.
And...the cuts on my arms and hands are healing nicely. =)

It's Remembrance Day, lest we forget. u_u
Tohjoh Asami has also passed away. A wonderful manga-ka; BL fans will never forget you, rest in peace. ;_;

*silence*

Coffee.

...I keel u.

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Thu, 11 Oct 2007 02:24:49 GMT

1. If school had an ass, I'd kick it. Hard.

2. I hate french class very much. :<

3. Neil Gaiman's works double as very powerful antidepressants.

Job + LGBT Films + As the World Turns

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Sun, 16 Sep 2007 06:43:48 GMT

I feel so accomplished LOL. 7 hours of work no break and no lunch (voluntary). So bascially I arrived 9:55 am, got the 'grand tour' from Mr. Christopher Ruff (Assistant Manager) and Naomi (Co-worker) which wasn't so grand because I wasn't even told where the washroom was. This lady comes up to me while I'm taking down overstock and asks me where the washroom is...I open a closet the first time. LOL. So then I'm told by Jesse to go downstairs; door locked. Went to Chris, found another door, hidden behind a shelf.

Overstock is...a simple enough job. Take down the baskets and fill any gaps on the shelves with the appropriate products. Except when you're small like me and are standing on the very last step of the ladder with your hands full, overstock will always be an adventure. 8D
I dropped two canvases, couldn't find the sticker gun where I left it (Joyce took it away) and some things just wouldn't fit in their proper place so you have to climb back up and put them back.

Most of the time, after re-stocking is complete, it's cleaning the store (I found a coffee cup and loads of wrapping and other shit), helping customers (sometimes they ask for REALLY weird things) and 'facing' which is turning all the bottles so that the label is facing towards you.

The other employees were very nice and patient towards me (considering I never left them alone with all my questions), Jesse's one of the more experienced workers (4 years) and he went to Sheridan for a few years so we talked about College while cleaning up the pencils; he's in OCAD now though, and he draws all sorts of odd ink caricatures of the other workers and sticks them on the lockers. But they're REALLY good. He measured all our heads...for why, I'll never know. Richard's the framer, Joyce has been working at DeSerres for about 3 years I think but she's really knowledgeable, Naomi's been there forever according to herself, Andrew I met very briefly and Scott's terribly nice despite my first impressions and I got to chat for a while with him. Apparently, all of them dislike the people living on Spadina. O_o; (Even though Jesse and Andrew are Asian....)

But yeah, work was good. I'm looking forward to going back. I love the cute aprons we get. Haha.

Oh my gosh. I went through...two movies today. Thank you Cherry, it's all your fault. So...Mudge Boy, and Edge of Seventeen (the most of it). Mudge Boy was so, so very disturbing. Even though I knew about that thing that would happen to Chicken (LOL that sounds funny) oh god, I cringed when it did. It was a pretty interesting movie despite the quirks. It's odd but refreshing for me to see a rather big name actor in an independant film like this. Especially one that deals with homosexuality. But I LOVE it when that occurs.

Edge of Seventeen; I didn't see the ending. But it's sort of a lighter movie and that was good after Mudge Boy. The sexual stuff between Eric and Rod in the beginning were kind of....sudden though?

Okay, so now I have to talk about As the World Turns,
which I've become SOOO obsessed with as of an hour and a half or so ago. Well, with the later episodes from about 2005-2007 'cause that thing's been going on since the 50s. Watching parts of A Home at The End of the World (another LGBT film with Collin Farrell) I saw this clip, on the sidebar Youtube has (the Related Videos I think) and it said "Luke & Noah's story - ATWT - Part 41 - THE KISS". Apparently, this was the first American teenage same-sex kiss on day-time television. O_O; Click it...only if you have very strong will power. And this user uploaded the parts of this freakishly long drama that only related to Luke and Noah; basically their storyline. And what's cool is that you can watch only these parts without getting too confused about the plot, which is awesome. I didn't watch it from Part 1 because I was too caught up in the latest episodes. Gah! Brian and Justin look out, I think I've got a new favorite TV series couple. (GOD that sounded really geeky) I want more....;_; Bless the person that uploaded those clips. I need to watch the earlier clips. XP

Right.

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Fri, 14 Sep 2007 06:23:19 GMT

Oh and Brian Melo won Canadian Idol. Good. I liked him second best. -v-

Because I Still Know What Breathing's Like

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Fri, 14 Sep 2007 06:21:44 GMT

I'm fucking tired. But I feel I have to show some sign of internet activity...before I'm swamped with any important work. Speaking of which, I FINALLY got a job. After the millions and millions of trees I killed and cartridges I made bleed in order to print resumes and applications! It's a pretty sweet job too, despite the fact that I'll be the baby of the group. Yay, it's at DeSerres Art Store (formerly known as Loomis Art Store which was formerly known as Loomis and Tooles which was formerly known as Omer DeSerres which was formerly a department store which was formerly a hardware store.) as a Sales Advisor/Cashier-When-Needed. So it's cool how I used to ask the people who worked there where to find particular things, but now people are going to ask ME. Heh heh, weird. I thought I screwed up the interview too. ^^; But went earlier today after school, bought a humongous canvas for class, and just as the manager was about to call home. I start Saturday. <3

I like having a computer in my room now. <3
Oh, and I've made it my daily ritual to produce SOMETHING before the day is done. Whether it's doodles or oekaki (both of which I'm not very keen on showing online right now. I want to change dA accounts I think), college is JUST around the bend. Oooh, creepy.

I haven't had the time to shop for people I've promised to get certian things for either....ARGH. I make terrible promises. Bad Carol. *headoven--Dobby style* Need sleep. G'night.

I blame Charlie?

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Tue, 17 Jul 2007 19:17:50 GMT

This whole week aside from half hour long visits to Hotmail, I HAVEN'T BEEN ON THE COMPUTER FOR LITTLE MORE THAN A WEEK. And that my friends is a tremendous thing because I'm usually the one wasting away in front of the screen playing online games or abusing Photoshop ~~and downloading manpr0nz or something~~.

And let me show you the being whom I hold responsible for my agony:

(I'll admit that's not the best picture of him)

THIS is our very new ~~destroyer of worlds~~ puppy Charlie.
He's a Bishon Frise/Poodle mix and a bit more than two months old now.

(That's a terrible picture of me having just woken up, my sister and Charlie)

He bites everything (including us), goes bathroom everywhere, makes messes, odours and noise...but he's just so CUTE. :(

Being honest, I never wanted to have a dog in the first place; especially not at this point in my life where there are so many other things I have to concentrate on. Things that are not picking up happy brown presents left on the floor. My sister wants to be a vet you see, and my parents were all:

"We think it's time your sister had a taste of what it's like to be responsible for a dog."
Me: "But does that mean we ALL have to suffer?!"
Parents: "Oh don't be so selfish, your sister's been wanting one for ages!"

I love dogs, but this just isn't the time. My dear parents, having had their share of bites and puddles to clean very much agree with me...now. But Lisa is the happiest thing ever; and she hardly wants to do anything without a push. My freedom is gone. T____T

This is the deepest sleep I've seen him in for a while so now was finally my chance to sit in front of the computer a little bit.

With Charlie on a rampage in our home, I guiltily admit that recently I try to stay away from the house as much as possible. I know I said that I had no freedom, and I still belive that. 'Cause when you're less than an hour into some needed walking time on Queen and you get a phone call to come racing home to take care of the THING ~~THAT WILL EAT YOUR SANTIY~~, you just...want to pull your hair out. (Which I did, but had someone else do it for me.) XD But that's another story.

I haven't a clue what's going on on dA or y!gallery OR LJ. >.>;;
I'd like to speak with Cherry and Sharon-smutbag...Bunny, Red Bean, Peter, Renka (whose VF for RUSH is looking great) ;_;
THAT CHARLIE REQUIRES ME TO SIT LIKE A POTATO ON THE COUCH AND MONITOR HIM WHILE HE GOES OFF AND CHEWS KHII. (Soraaaa~ *A*)

I'm probably the ONLY person...(checks back), correction, AM THE ONLY PERSON among the HP lovers I know to have NOT seen Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix Movie yet. [He woke up; must take him go potty NOW]

-20 minutes later-

Joy.
Back to ranting. And LIAM STYLES CHANG DIDN'T MAKE IT TO THE TOP TEN.
But that is minor. *sniff*

Cherry, I don't know how you manage with Lucky. But then again Charlie is still a baby and maybe I just complain too much.

Granado Espada

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Fri, 29 Jun 2007 06:28:49 GMT

Ah, Granado Espada (그라나도 에스파다)!
I'd found it browsing a forum back in December or January but never bothered to download it (IT'S FREE), but now I'm pretty much obsessed. ~~*grumbles about previously promising not to play any more online games*~~

Kim Hakyu, the creater of the ever popular Ragnarok Online is also the one responsible for this Age of Exploration type MMORPG. (I have never played RO)

The characters are gorgeous ~~and hot~~ and come in 5 classes: Fighter, Wizard, Musketeer, Scout and Elementalist/Warlock; male and female versions for each (They all have their own accents too-- it's cute). Everything is so pretty; from clothes, to environments...

Oh! And one of my favorite features is the Poses.
Thoughtful game developers they are! Noticing we gamers love to take screenshots, they've provided an extensive list of poses (you eventually have to purchase from an NPC)to put your characters in to make for interesting screenshots. <33

Naturally I abused this feature...a lot.

I'm going to try taking this one again. You can't see Quentis' arm. >.>;;

This is the Cite de Reboldoueux...starter city. ^^

Experimenting with poses. 8B

Al Quelt Moreza Nartex.

<3.

They look like this right now. ^_^

So if any of you play, I run around under the family name Corvier (Caspian is my Musketeer; Corolina, my Elementalist and Quentis, my Scout) on the Pachelbel server, usually Channel 2. I love how the community is so, uncrowded, unlike most MMORPGs.

Canadian Idol

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Fri, 29 Jun 2007 05:12:38 GMT

Because I won't stop ranting about how great Liam Styles Chang is. <3

I missed the last two episodes of Canadian Idol too. ;_;
WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME? I've suddenly become an Idol freak.
I blame this guy...and his AWESOME hair. >.>;;

Once again...HULLO INTERNETZ

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Wed, 27 Jun 2007 02:19:42 GMT

Right, so I'm not dead!

BUT exams ARE finally over. x_x;
The last few weeks of school were very brutal; full of culminating activities (Mixed Media Collage, Photography Scrapbook - killed about 30$), studying (Art History - SO MANY PAINTINGS), more studying (English, Math - Math I shall never have to see again!)...My virtual presence on the internet just, disappeared.

All pretty much worth it though!

Art - 92
Math - 81 (92 on exam. WOT!)
Photography - 94
English - 88

Decent I think. =) And I'm not taking math next year! So I don't have to worry about that anymore. Next year's subjects are:

Art
Ancient Civilizations
Latin
English
Writer's Craft
FRENCH (mm goi sai bunny -_-)
SPARE

A pretty good year ahead!
But summer is now officially here and I NEED A JOB. I've been hopping here and there for a summer job, namely places like the CNE, grocery stores (GOD FORBID), art stores, manga shops...
And summer leaves lots of time for things like Art practice, thankfully. My sketchbooks have been gathering dust. I shall put them to good use! Ms. Fularski has already prepared work for Grade 12 Art students to do in the summer...

15 Gallery Visits
20 Art related news articles
4 Series Paintings
4 Series Studies
Portfolio Preparation
Art Marketing

Yay.

Oh, oh, and on a random note. Canadian fellows, are you watching Canadian Idol?! Normally I don't touch the remote to our TV but I saw Liam Styles Chang preform on Monday. *love*
Let's hope Liam Chang wins this one! His hair pwns too. <333

Gah...so much internet stuff to catch up to. x___x;;;;;;

Hullo Internetz

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Sun, 06 May 2007 20:52:09 GMT

Lately all I've been doing is lurking. School seems a little less stressful now, aside from Art Class (oil paintings...) but somehow it's taken a real toll on my mood. O_o;
I don't really feel motivated to do anything, and that's the worst thing I could ever expect to feel. *go away, stupid slump* >_<

And I'm not wearing backpacks. HOW CAN YOU GO TO SCHOOL AND NOT WEAR A BACKPACK?!
So, I woke up one morning and couldn't move my neck (it was locked into one position), my shoulders were burning; my mom took me to the hospital. 3 hour wait. Another hour wait. Then the doctor tells me I had muscle spasms and a minor form of scoliosis AND that from then on I shouldn't wear backpacks for a few months or if possible, ever. I have to roll this luggage case around school and it's ridiculous. T___T

But this is no time to emo around. *A*
Maybe I'll draw some fanart...(Tales of the Abyss fanart <3)

Yaoyi's Birthday + Lent

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Mon, 19 Mar 2007 05:13:57 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR DEAR YAOYI! *glomps*

So, it was my job to distract the birthday girl while the others waiting at Pizza Hut ordered the food. I'm not very good at coming up with excuses at the last moment...or making fake telephone calls. XD

And then Michelle had to run off early to do her Anthropology essay...;_;
How'd that go by the way, Cherry? (I hope the monkeys were kind to you)XP

Bunny wore the bunny ears all the way to Yaoyi's house for cake...they were soft.

Yaoyi, Me and her cake. Notice jisuk's pins in my hat? TwT And how delightfully pink both Yaoyi and her cake are...<3

...XD

Ha, I think deprivation of chocolate has kicked me off the deep end.
I'd never done Lent before, though I grew up a Christian (I don't go to church). This year I am abstaining from consuming anything that is chocolate or is chocolatey and from playing video games. >.>;;
Although some of the things my friends are abstaining from are much harder than the ones that I've chosen. XP

I also can't seem to draw properly. :/
Sometimes, my hand will go into brief tremors or it's like I've forgotten how to do a simple pose I've done before. Losing the ability to draw even for a moment is the worst fear and thing that can happen to someone aiming for a life in the Arts and Animation fields; or to someone who needs to do a simple comic for Anime North. *fume* I hope this unlucky streak ends soon.

Victoria and Michelle will beta the fantasy fiction (illustrated novel to be) I am currently a part of. Thank you guys. ;w;

*I might be able to go to Hong Kong in June. T__T Pleeease Dad!

Valentine's Luv

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 03:05:49 GMT

Happy Valentine's Day, all. <3

Lotsa love from me to you.

I hate being bitchy...

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Mon, 12 Feb 2007 06:29:08 GMT

I have been a self-centered, selfish, mindless person this past week and will be this coming one.
(You have been warned my school mates. Grr~rr.)

Let's start at that fashion show. I guess it's my own fault for not working fast enough. But you know, I even went out yesterday for fabric, and everything I see is like...not in my budget or not right. I think we're all already aware of my lack of patience and short fuse. I left the store empty handed. I'm not going to that show; as wonderful as it sounds. I'm quite certain that sitting there, I would be bitchier than I already am due to the mixture of regret and self loathing I'm feeling right now. The other material I had previously bought is more or less destroyed because of my experimentations on it. There goes $35 out the window.

Speaking of cash; I've found myself low on it. Funny, 'cause these days, touching money makes me feel sick. 때때로, 아빠는 바보다. 아빠가, 스포츠 도박을 아직도햬. 나는 그것을 미워한다. 나는 그것을 순전히 미워한다! And school supplies for Art and Photography aren't helping. I hate to ask my parents for money, and I still have to make sure I save enough for AN '07 table and for the production of prints and whatnot.

I have been banging my head against the wall for reasons related to my creativity fountain. Why? BECAUSE IT'S DRIER THAN THE SAHARA DESERT. There goes my application to Sheridan. My art/writer's block has been going on for EONS. I'm not sure what to do with my life at this point. *emo emo*

Vic; I WANT to draw you some H/D but I don't know HOWWWW....*cries*

Exams done

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Wed, 31 Jan 2007 16:41:01 GMT

THEY'RE OVER. THANK HEAVEN. n(u.u)n
Would someone hurt me if I said I enjoyed the Latin exam for the most part? XD (I hope lvl 3 will run!)
I wish I could draw some kind of comic in Latin...that'd be fun. XDD
Four days of complete, no strings attached freedom! *///* (although I should be working on that dress. ugh.)
Let's go karaoke, ya?! XD

I did however get a chance to buy and watch MirrorMask this week and I LOVE IT SO MUCH. Neil Gaiman is one of those many people that own MY SOUL. There was this beautiful, surreal creativity just spilling from that movie; even though when you think about it, the plot wasn't uncommon.
Bought Curse of the Golden Flower too. *love*

Hmm...it must be well past midnight in Manila now but, wishing a Happy 18th Birthday to Renka-uhnee <33!
(Legaaal! I patiently await my turn...want..draw man pr0n. *should concentrate on DRAWING first* Cough.)
May her new year bring happy times, success and opportunities. Love and support from me to you! *3*

Happy New Year!

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Jan 2007 03:34:53 GMT

Happy New Year!!

Luck and prosperity to you all. <3
From the looks of it; things will be alright for me too. =)

I came back from watching Curse of the Golden Flower.
A beautiful movie with rich colours and gold everywhere, very literaly. But what else can you expect from the Tang dynasty? ^^; (Did a huge essay on the greatness of the Tang dynasty and it's expanse in culture and territory. @_@) It was very similar to how I'd pictured the Tang dynasty to look. There's lots of taboo and complex relationships in the story, along with the excellent fight scenes. All the actors did a great job; I was especially surprised to see how Jay Chou portrayed his character Prince Jai (the subtitles spelled it this way O_o;;;), so well (I'd never seen Initial D before...even though I own it.)! I just wonder why my mother kept laughing through the whole thing. O_O Something to do with Chow Yun Fat. I guess I'll never understand. ^^; But I won't spoil anymore of the plot or characters.
Go watch this movie!

What a start...

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Thu, 28 Dec 2006 18:45:11 GMT

Heeey, I hope you all passed a wonderful Christmas (and Boxing Day...har. XD).
I had a really great Christmas! Cookies, sleep and I got a placing in jisuk's contest. *///* (Thank yuuuu!) I ran around my house screaming and jumping and yeah...very happy. XD See the thank you 'card' I made. Right Here ^3^

Unfortunately...today, my mom recieved a call. I cannot explain what it was about but it had to do with my father and his gambling problem; which we THOUGHT he had quit. Needless to say, this lead to much screaming and shouting and cussing...I don't even want tell what the place looks like right now.

My father's left the house for...somewhere; I don't know. I really don't know how I feel right now. I love my dad a lot but at this point I don't know...I really don't. Ever since I was even born. 23 years...23 years. And you know LJ is like rant/feelings dump numero uno so, thought I'd take a breather here while everything else is cooling down.

I hate seeing my parents like this; I really do. It's not the first time either.
And my credit card (got it two days before christmas) now lays in the trash in a million pieces. -_-;

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Tue, 26 Dec 2006 04:29:03 GMT

Merry Christmas everyone!! Hugs and cheer all 'round. <3
I hope all of you will have a wonderful holiday and a great New Year!
Take Care! *love love*

(ah, I wanted to upload this little guy onto DA but it's not working for me ;_;)

*off to watch RENT* <3

Lee Junki figure love

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Sun, 10 Dec 2006 21:09:34 GMT

......O_O! (<3)

Bio + IwtV + Harusaki-san <3

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Sun, 10 Dec 2006 03:14:53 GMT

OH. MY. GOD.

Okay...Biology Project surveys. 40 done, 40 more to go! x__x
We spent practically the whole day out yesterday. Toronto Reference Library for the History 'dissertation' (my thesis is 'The Tang Dynasty: The most prosperous of ancient China's dynasties and also the Golden Age of China's culture') and then it was off to Dufferin Mall. We stayed there 'til about, maybe 7:15 pm trying to get people to do our surveys. Somewhat successful? Maybe.

I'm still dreading that horrible dichotomous key for Biology...Gahhhh~.

I really complain too much I think. *hits self* Positives, positives. <3

I got to see Interview with the Vampire today (borrowed from library), with Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt. Well, when I was reading the book, I certainly did not imagine Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt as Lestat and Louis. Antonio Banderas as Armand? O_O The acting wasn't bad though and I liked it all the same. ^^; Still, whoa. (Cruise x Pitt = whut? x_x)

I also think I'll try and give Harusaki's contest a go. Her characters look absolutely awesome. Of course I can't design such detailed and fanastical fashions as she can. *o* *tries anyway*

To Do List:
- World History Homework package --> yet another.
- World History Test --> and another.
- Biology Project (with Victoria & Yaoyi) x2
- French Speech (Discours sur l'Ennui) [oral version]
- Harusaki-san's Contest
- Try studying with Dad for Chinese Dictation.
- ~~Illustrations for First Kisu~~ (Due to unfortunate events, Ryokoshima-san can't continue First Kisu. ;_;)

Cantonese Night School

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Thu, 16 Nov 2006 06:14:05 GMT

低舉疑床夜
頭頭是前思
思望地明
故明上月李
鄉月霜光白
。

One of the first poems we learned in Cantonese night school, by Li Bai.

So bright a gleam on the foot of my bed –
Could there have been a frost already?
Lifting myself to look, I found that it was moonlight.
Sinking back again, I thought suddenly of home.

Cantonese school is actually fun and I'm very much enjoying what I learn. XD
It feels good already just to pick up even the smallest of phrases in convos and understand. <3

To Do List:
- World History Homework package --> next Friday.
- World History Test --> next Friday.
- Biology Project (with Victoria & Yaoyi)
- French Speech (Discours sur l'Ennui)
- RFTT Playoffs
- Try studying with Dad for Chinese Dictation.
- Illustrations for First Kisu (gah~! *dies happy*)
Tomorrow's a short day because of Parent/Teacher interviews. Thank God. <3

Omigosh...o

soujirous_smiles@hotmail.com — Sat, 11 Nov 2006 04:01:13 GMT

I came home from school today and what does my mom hand me?! AHHH~ It was Renka-uhnee's package! <3 Needless to say, I totally spazzed and started jumping on the spot in happy excited..ness. XD
I was worried about it getting lost too...;_; But, save for a few torn edges, it arrived safe and sound!

I was rendered speechless. :'D
Inside was Issue 10 of Mango JAM (with Renka-uhnee's beautiful Kali cover and illustrations; along with other neat and cute comics and some interesting articles!), a print of her stunning (winning!) entry to kitmun's contest (which I have framed and put on my bedroom wall X3), a postcard featuring Shimizu-sensei from Chobits <3 and a CD filled with awesome music tracks!

I can't thank you enough, Renka-uhnee! ;_; It was such a wonderful surprise to open up that package and see what was inside and it really brightened my day. I was so fascinated with Mango JAM and read through it twice over! From what I've seen around, we really don't have those kinds of magazines in Canada or at least, in my area. Q_Q And I throughly enjoyed (and am still enjoying!) the CD you sent me as well. <3
Track 12 (the traditional instruments) has become one of my favorites. ^///^

I really do hope that we can meet in Korea someday, or anywhere else in the world! <3 I would definitely love to thank you in person...=D
Your gifts will always be a part of my treasures and although it may not be soon, I'll look forward to that day when we can all have fun together. *hugs and kisses*

(Gah! I've said a lot...but I can say more! Nah~ better not...^^;;; *glomps you all*)